Lately, I find myself dressing more for my age. Looking at old photos for throwback makes me laugh/cringe on how I looked back then. Transitioning from teenager to young adult brought so many changes: changes in how I dress, in life decisions, in relationships and more importantly, in my long term goals.
My teenager self cringed at the idea of being 22. I dreaded the idea of getting old and I wanted to stay as an adolescent forever. But looking back, those teenager years were full of uncertainties. I was fickle-minded and indecisive. I was open to many possibilities that I didn’t know which one to focus first. I grabbed every opportunity and took so many u-turns.
At this stage in my life, I can say that things are falling into place. Instead of cringing, my teenager self would nod with pride looking at who I am right now. Going out of those naive years, I earned myself a degree with good grades, passed the board exams and now studying in the best medicine school.
I am now taking a route where my goals are more certain. It may be a lot harder comparing to how easy breezy my life was then, but I am on this and I am never looking back.
There seems to be no end for my midriff top craze. This trend isn’t going anywhere so I will make the most out of it by matching it to different garments to produce a new whole style.
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"Fashion is how we experiment, seduce, play and express."
I’m living up to this quote by channeling eternal youth with my vampire-ish ensemble. I’m not a big fan of vampires but the way their character exude sultry sexiness is a game changer. Red wine lipstick with strong eyes matched with dark hued clothes do capture attention and attraction. Their mysterious and tempting aura convinced me to use them as my inspiration for my next outfit post. :)
I think I’m more of a zombie than a vampire with what’s happening in my life lately. Last week’s array of exams and quizzes drained us with energy and life. We were like walking zombies due to sleep and social deprivation. If only eating brains will help us retain everything all at once, count us in for the zombie club. Having 3-4 consecutive quizzes in a day with no breaks in between is a mental torture. Nakakapagod! T.T
To make matters worse, my boyfriend is gone for a month due to work demands. He was assigned in Palawan to supervise a project. I’m proud with his milestones and I’m all support when it comes to his architecture career. It still pains me, though, not to see him. Going out with him during weekends is the only rebreather I get from the stressful environment of med school. I tried going out with friends, but nothing can replace his presence. It’s been two weeks and I’m counting down days until I can hug him again. Ano ba ‘yan! So much feels! But seriously though, I’m trying my best to hold it together. I can do this. Once I get through with all this med school and boyfriend drama, I know this experience will make me more resilient. I know this test will make us stronger. Kapit lang. :)
Okay, enough with the drama! Let’s go to the outfit details! :)
Since I’m aiming for a vampire peg, I opted to wear these dark shoulder cut out lace dress (made into a top) and black origami skort. I also added gold accessories for the perfect vampy feel. :)
Outfit details after the cut!
As you mature, you will learn to know that things that you are capable of. Likewise, you will also know your limitiations. At this stage in my life, I have created my own list of strengths and weaknesses. I know where I am good and bad at. For one, I know that I’m good at memorizing (now you know why I am in med school lol) and suck at solving numbers. I know where I would excel and I give my time and effort on it.
But there is one thing that can be listed as both my strength and weakness: disappointing myself.
When I want something, I put my heart on it. I never ever give up. I have disappointed myself so many times though and those disappointments lead me to either sulking or bouncing back. When I fail at achieving my goal, I tend to suppress the feeling and just forget about it. That’s when I erase one strength from my list, and then another, until I am convinced that that’s the limit of my capabilities.
Until recently, I found myself reaching outside my own “made-up limitations”. Kaya ko pala. It’s not everyday in med school that I get a grade higher than what I expected. That feeling of seeing my name next to a line of 9 grade in a major subject was very uplifting. I don’t wanna sound bragging and shallow, but I just want to share what I learned this week: Never limit yourself.
Disappointments are truly downers, but they should never be the reason for you to quit your goals and limit yourself of the things you can and cannot do. Yes, we all have our own lists of strengths and weaknesses, but wouldn’t it be better if we keep on adding more on the former and lesser on the latter? Better yet, make every weakness as your source of determination. :)
That was a long intro… Let’s now digress to my outfit! As you can see, I haven’t gotten over my midriff top craze, but how can I resist a midriff top with cutout shoulders? I love it!
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I’ve already lost count on how many times I’ve mentioned “high yield” for the past week. My med school friends and I would often use these words to pertain to any high quality study material (e.g. handouts, samplex, etc.) or any study-related activity that we deem 100% beneficial for our upcoming exams and quizzes. Funny how I seem to associate these words to just anything! Kind of L.W.S? Last Word/s Syndrome? Nyahaha K. Corny. :))
On a serious note, these words seem to have a lasting effect on me. I thought, “Why not use these words as my everyday mantra?” Do everything fruitfully. Invest big and harvest bigger. These realizations are pretty much timely as I start with my 22nd year. I feel more driven and inspired. It is like making sure that every passing day mattered.
Demmie, high yield version? Sounds good to me. :)
I wore this outfit on our birthday lunch celebration since I still feel like imbibing the “mature” peg. For a change, I didn’t stick to wear-red-on-your-birthday tradition. So, I ended up with a monochromatic ensemble and I felt like I’m wearing my age. :)
Who doesn’t like shoulder cut-outs and midriffs? And to roll them into one is a mainstream extraordinaire! One Lilac surely knows the likings of every fashionista girl! :)
More outfit details after the cut. :)